The tendency of a person when he compares himself with others is really to become vain or become bitter, as stated in Max Ehrmann’s “Desiderata“. However, inasmuchas I’d like to avoid comparison, there are times that I feel it is inevitable… There are moments when I’m predisposed to get insecure with other people… especially with those seemingly “perfect” ones…
I know that I have so many achievements up my sleeves (I’ve been this… I’ve been that…) …but i choose not to brag about them because i know that i have my own weaknesses… It’s better to be insecure at times than be boastful since the former hurts the self alone, while the latter hurts even others….
I’ve watched a talk show( i better not mention what show it was)… and one of their guests identified the three D’s that girls hanker after guys… they are “Dunong, Dating, and Datung”… Among the three, i only have one… That is “Dunong” (i’m not even sure if i have this… but i guess my educational background plus a handful of awards will support this claim)…I’m such a loser… 1 out of 3 is just 33%… it doesn’t even surpass the 50% mark….
What are my insecurities, you might ask… Here they are: (in no particular order… haha)
Height.
- I’m only 5′5.5″ (a year ago I was 5′4″). Thanks to Cherifer PGM and my growth hormones… They’re still not giving up….
- I know that I’m taller than the average Filipino who is 5′4″ tall… but when i go to malls, i feel so small (literally… haha)…
Weight.
- It seems that I’ve been gobbling endlessly this summer break… yet, my arms are still as thin as a pogo stick…
- One change in my body’s noticeable though, I now have baby fats… haha… (is this normal? does the belly really fatten first before the arms?)
Skin Color.
- Among our family members, i’m the only one born with a tan complexion.. my other siblings have fair skin… I’m the only “nognog”… hahaha
- Good thing there’s Biolink.. haha.. now, i’m somehow closer to their color….
Skin Type.
- I’d like to thank my mom for the “oily-skin-gene” i inherited from her…. Now, I’m pimply…. hahaha
- I need to spend as much as 700 PHP per month (i know this is cheap for you… but considering that i’m only from the middle class, i bet this amount is a bit pricey) to avoid and to treat my pimples…
I have many other insecurities like Social Class and others but those are not within my reach anymore in terms of solving them…
I also know that nobody’s perfect…. and I’ll get over these insecurities eventually… Maybe I’m just too bored right now that I notice even these things…. haha….
Let’s not get into insecurities please. Lahat tayo meron, especially me. Haha!
I think you should worry about your insecuties so much. You’re still so young, There’s time to get that 100%
By: Jigs on June 11, 2007
at 5:13 am
you SHOULD’NT pala dapat yun, hahaha!
By: Jigs on June 11, 2007
at 5:13 am
woi, ano ka ba edgar? tama, lahat naman tayo may insecurities pero hindi mo naman dapat masyadong damdamin yun. ^_^ ako kahit marami rin akong disappointments sa sarili ko i’m still happy na na-aaccept naman ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko…
By: janell on June 11, 2007
at 11:04 am
being bitter is not better. trust me, i’ve been there.
don’t worry about it too much. =p
By: jau on June 11, 2007
at 3:37 pm
I’m telling you, not everyone has the “Dunong” na kung saan eh meron ka. BE PROUD YOU HAVE THAT INTELLIGENCE. Keep yourself busy, para atleast hindi idle yung mind mo na mag-isip ng kung anu-anu: a good book would be a BIG help. And I’m sure na magiging busy ka na this school year, so goodluck!
Tama yung sinabi ni Jigs: “lahat naman tayo may insecurites”. And I’m sure sa case mo, mas marami yung mga strong points kesa dun sa mga negative. At depende yun sa outlook mo sa buhay.
LIFE IS HOW YOU MAKE IT. Always think positive… kasi the more na positive ang iniisip mo, eventually, positive energy din ang na-aatract mo. Gets? Ü
Again, lahat tayo may mga flaws pero huwag nating hayaan na kainin tayo ng “flaws” / “insecurities” na yan ng matagal na panahon dahil it will surely affect us… badly.
I really wish you well, Edgar. SMILE! Di pa katapusan ng mundo. Ü
By: Marlou on June 11, 2007
at 9:53 pm
Being bitter is definitely not better when it consumes you and prevents you from appreciating your true worth. Ooooh.. nosebleed, haha!
LAHAT tayo may insecurities. Basta when you feel ugly, don’t look at handsome guys. Pagmasdan mo yung mga pangit. Pramis, you’ll feel better, haha!
Height.. I’m 5′7″ Not bad, i guess. I used to wish that I was taller, cos I wanted to be a volleyball player back in high school. Pero ngayon, hindi na masyado. Kuntento na ako that I’m of normal height.
Weight.. Aaaargh! Tumaba daw ako. I don’t mind really, pero sana hindi concentrated sa tiyan, haha! Akala ng marami, lasenggo ako at may beer belly..
Skin color.. I would love to be whiter.. Yung tipo nina Diether Ocampo, Gerald Andersen, yung ganon. Pero not so much anymore. Tanggap ko na na kulay ko dahil I’m whiter than most Filipinos na rin naman eh. Ok na yun. Ang ayaw ko lang ay ang mga pimple blemishes ko ang at maitim kong siko at tuhod, haha! Sana lang pantay diba?!
Skin type.. Oily face din ako. Ewan kung kanino nagmana, hehe! Kaya nagkapimple ako nung high school eh. Mabuti na lang at kahit nagkaka-occasional pimple ako, nawawala rin eventually. Pero may dark spots pa rin..
Socio-economic status.. Kuntento na ako sa pagiging upper middle class. Pero gusto ko talagang yumaman, hehe! Pero ayokong yumabang or maging matapobre..
Intelligence.. Oh I definitely have intelligence, wit and some more, hehe! Kahit hindi ako science HS alumnus. Pero strive for wisdom, more than intelligence..
Wuy, anhaba ng comment ko. Para na rin ako nagpost ng sariling kong blog about sa topic mo, haha!
See you around.. Batiin mo ako ha..
By: Rex on June 12, 2007
at 1:59 am
Oh shite I have so many insecurities they won’t even fit in this comment.
Let’s just say I’m short and fat. Those are my main insecurities. Cherifer NEVER worked for me. Grr.
By: Juice on June 12, 2007
at 3:36 pm
(insert seraphic entrance background music here)
have you read “Purpose Driven Life”?
Some answers regarding insecurity are there hehe.
Me too. I have insecurities. Lahat naman tayo meron siguro.
Dunong ba kamo? Mas Ok yun sa May Datung na wlang Dunong. Kasi balang araw yung may datung mawawalan ng datung dahil wala silang dunong, kaya ayun mawawalan na nga ng datung para magkaron sila ng dating.
He he he. Logic boy.
By: japboy on June 12, 2007
at 10:28 pm
wag kang maging bitter… be confident of whatever you have, it will make you feel better.
ampalaya lang ang bitter!
By: billycoy on June 13, 2007
at 3:50 pm
I feel you. I’m 5′10″. Jhed makes me feel soooo short.
Think of Irvin whenever you feel small! Yay!
By: benj on June 13, 2007
at 7:07 pm
Ay nako, pagdating ng araw, magkakaroon ka rin ng datung. Graduate ka sa CBA, mag-ipon ng datung tapos nun, magpaguwapo para magkaron ka ng dating. XD
By: claire on June 13, 2007
at 7:55 pm
buti ka nga 5′5 ka pa e. e ako nga, 5′2. walang epekto ang cherifer sa akin. lintik yan. inubos lang ang panahon ko sa paghihintay tumangkad. pero ngayon, kuntento ako sa pagiging 5′2. kaso, isang pangarap na ang nawala sa akin. ang isang maging modelo…
By: baylon on June 19, 2007
at 5:24 pm
You’re not a hopeless case! Think about your talents, skills and positive traits. And don’t dwell on your weaknesses or the criticisisms others might say of you. Focus on your assets, ika nga! And for me, a great sense of humor is always attractive. Ü
By: Marlou on June 20, 2007
at 1:30 pm
I’ve tried Cherifer. Doesn’t work.
By: Misterhubs on June 27, 2007
at 1:20 pm
ano height mo nung 2 yrs old ka? hehe. multiply mo daw sa 2 yun, yun ang magiging height mo when you reach adolescence. OT140 human dev. hehe.
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linkie!
By: Arnel on July 19, 2007
at 10:29 pm
Angas naman nun kuya edgar!
“It’s better to be insecure at times than be boastful since the former hurts the self alone, while the latter hurts even others….”
Whooo! Lahat naman ng tao may insecurities eh so ayos lang yan. Tanggapin mo nalang kung ano yung binigay sayo ni God dahil it’s what makes you uniquely you. ‘Di ba?
Anyway, ayan ah! May na-recruit ka na naman na lumipat ng wordpress.. Hahahaha!!! Actually ‘di naman ako maglilipat eh. Uuwi lang sa isang dating tirahan, more like. Nyak! =P
Dalawin mo nalang ako dito (http://carmigz.wordpress.com) ah? =P
By: carmigz on July 20, 2007
at 5:55 pm
ayos lang yan… marami rin akong insecuties eh pero kapag kelanagn ko kalimutan kinakalimutan ko… wala talaga akong mararating kunglagi kong icoconsider ang mga “hindi magagandang” bagay sa aking katawan o sa kung ano pa man.
ta!
By: Rob on July 22, 2007
at 9:37 pm
just so you know that i have been resurrected. i think i also deserve a comment like this from you. paramdam ka naman! XD
nasakin pa fight club mo. :p gusto ko ibalik na dahil gusto humiram ng iba pa LOL
By: rv on August 4, 2007
at 1:04 am
Hay Edgar, ang vain mo talaga. (Eto na naman, nagsalita ang hindi vain. Hehe.)
Hehe. Tatangkad pa kaya ako ‘pag nag-Cherifer? Sana
Ui, effective ba talaga ang glutathione as pampaputi? Haha. Wala lang. Adik ko.
By: gerome on August 9, 2007
at 6:25 pm